My Story

It was the start of Covid-19 and I was registered into an online course. My divorce had just been finalized and I was still healing. I was in a good frame of mind, but I wasn't completely happy. I had kept my divorce a shameful little secret and was unaware of the weight it was imposing on me.

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Upon my first meeting with my coach, I was challenged to post something on social media that was extremely personal and would make me vulnerable to the world. It was an odd request, but fit perfectly with what her course was and where I was in my process. When I settled into the request, I knew I would be talking about the divorce. After all, it was the thing in my life that I had suppressed.

Before pressing the button and going live on Facebook, I was confronted with a variety of things. I felt shame, I felt insecure, and I had an overwhelming fear of being judged. I was going to put something out into the world that was not positive and it would show me as not being wanted, not good enough. With a knot in my stomach, I searched for reasons to not do it.  Every part of me searched for an excuse. I was attached to looking like I had it all together. I had done it for so long that I had forgotten what happens when you trust the process and tell the truth.

It was my commitment that pushed the button to go live that night. I had said I would do it, and so I did. What happened in those next moments radically changed my life.